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[17 Jun 2009|11:40pm] oh how i miss live journal so much old stuff id write on here... man  oh man i wud sure pour all my feelings out on here lol <3 HoLlA aT yA gRl!!

totally bummed [23 Apr 2007|08:41pm] [ mood | crushed ] k so... if i do him......im an easy party hoe if i dont,......im a lagger that cant handle her shit i tried to do tha right thing but i guess it came to bite me in tha ass..... shuda juss stuk to being a bitch what do i do????????? 9 DiD!!| HoLlA aT yA gRl!!

[30 Nov 2006|10:09am] [ mood | content ] ive never missed you more than i do now..... i love the weather! its perfect!!!!!!!! freezing like a mutherfuker....but the sun is still out.....making a part of my day a bit brighter.....!!!!!! SHAKE IT...BUT DONT BREAK IT!!!!!!! <3 ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 3 DiD!!| HoLlA aT yA gRl!!

[20 Mar 2006|06:42pm] ok u askd how i wus feeling...so heres how i feel... i feel incomplete....i feel like im missing sumthing....like im misssing sum1...i feel like theres an empty space....a space that can only be filled by certain ppl...certain friends....i feel like my heart can only love a certain person....and only that person can bring that joy bak into my life. i feel like im missing a part of my family.....a certain person.....i feel like im missing a part of me....of who i WAS....of what ive become....i feel like im missing sleep becuz its been a wile since i get a good nights sleep....i cant sleep cuz im  busy cuz im tired cuz im thinking...n i think 2 much.....about everythgn n every1 n wat tha hell is gonna happen to my life. i cant sleep becuz i wonder if sum else feels tha way i feel or if im tha only dumbass around that gets these thoughts n emotions.... i feel like i no longer care or giv a fuk about wut happens 2 ppl...i feel like tha ppl in my life now r juss ppl to help me pass tha days by....i feel lke as sooon as im done with skool...im done with them....i feel like ive lost eveyrhtng that ive had...once had or once cared about....i feel like ive lost every bit of emotion n care n love left in my herat n i feel lke sum1 juss ripped my heart apart n stabbed it with a knife n threw it on tha floor stepped all over it piked it up n threw bak down on tha floor n walkd all over it n threw every bit of care i had 4 ppl right down tha fuking drain..... 8th grade- came 2 h.s alone...lost most of friends freshman yr- lost my best friend becuz she left sophmore yr- lost my roaddawgg junior yr- lost tha only ppl id giv my life up 4...but theyll always be my 2 best friends by senior yr tha only person ive evr given my heart 2 walked outta my life  its like an ongoing process.....every yr lose sum1 important in my life...pretty soon...i can c more ppl leaving me behind...... shit works out in weird ass ways........ now u know how i feel....so dont ever fuking ask again 3 DiD!!| HoLlA aT yA gRl!!

SIPPIN ON GIN N JUICE!!!!!! [23 Jan 2006|10:54pm] AIITE LIL IGGAZ....LETS GET TO IT.....   so this past wkn d wus quite fuking ineteresting....in fact..fuk it ....were gonna go bak to this past wk...shit ummm...... lets c...... MONDAY....WORK....THEN CHILL AT NAT TILL MIDNITE TUESDAY..........skool....work.....then chill at nats till midnite WEDNESDAY......skool.....work....thenc hill at nats till midnite... THURSADY,.....SKOOL......then i wus exhausted as fuk so i didnt go to work....but i went to the bball game at joes n chilled iwt nat till midnite.......hahahahaah bball game wus aiite.....joes lost...btu hey...wut else is new........sum fat bitch wus named georgia n me n nat started singin to ray chaeles lol.....then i walk outside.....n i c mr horn wit the "sherriff.......surrounding my car!!!!! hahahah yeah i  got a ticket by mr. horn for parking in tha fire zone...n then i got a lecture from tha retarted old police man. lol n i hav 2 serve anotha detention hahahhahahaahah then we fuked around on top of beccers car n got yelled at again hahahahahahahahhaah n then we all went racing down lakewood lol...... FRIDAY.......went to LA wit nat cuz she needed 2 find a dress........we got visually harassed by a bunch of hobos n we were both shitting briks but we at street hot dogs n it wus bomb as fuk..........we ended up at cerritos mall where she found  dress....well she found lke 10 n got one n i found my formal date hahahahahahahahhaah <<<insider..... we came bak to my hous got ready took a nap n got on our way to got to the bbal game at faggot ass bosco.....we got drunk off our asses wit alma n then we hit up tha dance n linares almost kiked me out AGAIN...... for giving linda a lap dance......otyher than that i dont rmemebr shit except that we were sweeeerrvviiinnn hahahaha n then we ended up at norms wit b-bell gaymar dwayne n king........oh n me n nat lol...... cxame home knoked out......good shit SATURDAY...... wok at 8 in tha morning......mean 'olhangover.......got off at 6.......then went out to eat at rachel rosenblooms restaurant SHANENDOAHS..... me n nat rolled 2 cservenyaks hous n met up wit "tony" hahahahaah funny ass white boy...... n we grubbed on 25$ plates lmao....... bomb shit then chilled wit nat n came home SUNDAY.......work again 9 in tha morning........exhausted as all fuk..........bak wus hurting....legs were sore.....dont ask why........n then i went to nats......went to go eat at in n out at lbtc.....went to stater brothers n bought ice  cream n marshmellows...............went bak to her place....rtalkd on tha fone to *him* for tha longest time.......wrestled wit nats piece of shit dogg n then came home.... TODAY....MONDAY...me n nat thoguth we had an english rough draft due 2day....so we decided 2 miss blk a n go into akool at lke 9:10....n we ate breakfast at dennys wit her sister n our moms met us up thr...... went to skool.... n ralized we missed class 4 nuthn cuz that shit wusnt due...hahahaha its all gravy tho....shoot we grubbed....... then at skool i rezlized i passed all my classes n my finals woo hoo!!!! doin better than i thought! n yeaaaaaaaahhhhhh came home ate.......played wit tha nices n nephews 4 a bit.....n then took a nap...woke up to an empty hous......every1 wus gone...... did hsit online lke im doin now....n now im bored again...     ahhhhhh well this wus fun.......     now ima go hit tha showa........sleep again ....ake up around  3 in tha morning lke i always do....n think about >>him<< mayb 2moro will b  lil better     bye everyone!!!! HoLlA aT yA gRl!!

time hasnt healed a single thing.... [16 Jan 2006|10:55pm] [ mood | cynical ] january 16th.........a year ago today.....wus tha most wonderful n best day of my life   n well today all i cud do.....is rememebr every single litle thing...every dday nite memory n moment spent 2getehr...n wish that he is ok/..........   n maybe......juss maybe..................... he thought of me today......even if it wus just 4 a minute or a second..... but mayb .......................i crossed his mind........   n maybe...................for one second.............maybe he missed me...........like i miss him   >>1*16<< 3 DiD!!| HoLlA aT yA gRl!!

[04 Jan 2006|12:00am] [ mood | accomplished ] alrite veryone so i think im going bak to my LJ....n i mean go bak on it a lot more often than i did this past yr....ive neglected it for too long n this usually helped me get alot off my chest.....so mayb itll help a lil more this yr   so here we go...   lets see......im glad we had break cuz i needed it n i needed 2 get away from half tha bitches at josephs...thnk god....cant wait till i get outta that hell hole!  unfortunatley we go bak soon....n its bak to tha fuking homework which i dont plan on doing..... meanwile...im bustin my ass off at work n im enjoying every second of it.....promotion coming up soon!!! woo hoo!!!! which means RAISE!!!!!! lets see if u owe me money...pay me bak now fukers b4 yo mommas gotta come solving yo problems out for yu...id hate to see yu get ur ass whooped by yo mommy n daddy...... ummm......ive slept in a whole lo....unfortunatly not at my hous.....usually at nats or at anotha 1 of my bitches......... xmas n new yrs were bomb as fuk party party party....cudnt get bettter.......well except 4 one thing...one thing missing.... i hav no new yrs resolution cuz im too lazy for thats hit...insteda i think ima set my mind to being nie 2 ppl....rather than laughing when theyre sad or hurt....n mayb pray every nite if i can stik to it...im missing jesus in my life lately...so that shud make things sumwut better..... um nat left me 4 a whole 2 kws almost cuz she left 2 arizona.....but shes bak n life is good again! i think i like this 1 person....but iono....like i do but i dont...u knw how that goes.... i think i do tho...lol :) mayb this 1 will be a bit different..... he makes me smile tho.... *shhhhhh* lol n lets see wut else...i think thats bout it.... gettin drunk n gettin laid....thats tha good life..... im out kidds hollaaaaaaaaa!!!!! 2 DiD!!| HoLlA aT yA gRl!!

wheres jesus wen i need him? [22 Nov 2005|09:00pm] [ mood | crushed ] why do i still miss him??????????????????????????????????   why do i still fuking care so much??????????????????????         FUK FUK FUK.....           if u only knew.....     :'( sumbody juss shoot me now         8 DiD!!| HoLlA aT yA gRl!!

[16 Oct 2005|12:38pm] wen im asleep....its tha only time all my worries r gone.....but then i wake up to tha hell hole we all live in...       i  wish i cud juss go to sleep 4ever.....and never wake up....   *10^16^o5*   (mayb....juss mayb, he still rememebrs) 2 DiD!!| HoLlA aT yA gRl!!

last but not least [29 Aug 2005|11:14pm] [ mood | disappointed ]   “DON’T LET GOOD PEOPLE PASS YU BY IN LIFE”…….   So sum1 I knw told me that a wile ago. I guess its tru wen u think about  it. We let good ppl pass us by in life n then wen theyre gone….we gotta learn things tha hard way. But then again…its like that for most things in life. So this wk we started skool…yea I knw I havnt update din 4ever but wth …I feel like fuking typing…. So yeah… Summer…once again….interesting as usual. Dam I cant even remember half tha shit I did last summer. I jus knw it wus crazy….had its usual ups n downs n wut not…but dam I got over it n now look at me…cant even remember that shit…..i jus hope that wutevr happnd this summer…I can forget too. There really aint shit I wanna remember bout it. I cant sit here n complain. If shit happened its for a reason. N cuz of tha shit that went down…I learned that I gotta b able 2 “digest” things better…take wats coming to me n handle it. I gotta b able to receive wutevr it is that’s comin my way, whether its good or bad. N I did. On tha good side of it all….i hung out with old friends….dam me n nat hung out more than ever…. Nanette n our random outings…..kikin it with tito again….hangin out wit chambers…..seeing tha old homiez…..alllllllllllll tha guys that came my way…lol nat knows how bad it was…..i cudnt rmemerb any of them guys names lol…..i wus seriously lost! Lol but hey…..gotta do wat I do best…. Takin class at Cerritos was quite eventful….lol all tha ppl I met…..n tha shit that went down wile I wus thr….its fukin crazy wat happns rite in front of my eyes….. work…well…work is work…im getting my money n getting paid good…..so I aint trippin. GOTTA MAKE THAT CHEDDAR!!Besides…shit like that made me get my mind off lotsa things. I guess along tha way I realized a lot of shit…..mostly thnx 2 nat….. I mean homegirl had her own drama,…but she still found time to come n bring me food on my lunch break….. come with me to get jamba jucie cuz I didn’t wanna drive alone…..come with me after class to eat cuz I didn’t wanna eat alone….lol fuk jusss kikin it…n talkn…n letting it all out…. Juss shows u who ur tru friends r…. regardless of whether u still hang out or sit togetrh or not. Then aside form her…thers my Pornstars……DAM….I MISSED LILO N JESSIE WILE THEY WERE GON BUT I HAD MY CHRISTA…. Girl had my bak nonstop…..jus kikin it at tha park n talkn shit to eachothr…cryin n laughin evrythgn…that wus good enuf… then my natalie…omg that white bycth has been with me everywhere…after she came bak from florida….i wus at her place 24-7…… then Jessie n lilo came bak n hells muthafuking yes all hell wus loose!! Lol…….wakin up at 5 in tha morning…getitn dennys…..being loudasses til we got kiked out….. spending tha day wit Jessie n nats arab fuking families lol…crazy ass shit…..then me n christa goin baby shopping at baby’s r us!!!! Hahahahahahha good shit…n my kerbear……being tha slut that she is n always makin me laf till I dropp…….seeing christas soccer game…n talkn shit….goin to BJs olive garden…MICKEY DEE’S ……ice cream…sizzler..anything that consisted of FOOD…WE WERE THR!!! Hhahahahahah oh man too many good times wit them gurls….its been fun. N well…as 4 tha rest of summer…well hey…wat can I say…gota juss learn from lifes lessons….tha day b4 skool started…me nat n patty went to go get a tarot reading….. its been like tha most interesting thing ive had in a loooonng ass time….i wus first to go….n I came out in tears…..i don’t wanna say I believe much of wat tha lady told me…cuz im more of a person that thinks things happen cuz theyre supposed 2 happen…ya u can control ur own destiny…but y do u wanna change n control tha things that lifes sendin u….let shit happen n let things run its course….so I didn’t really wanna believe completle wat she said…..but in general..she said I had nuthn but bad news goin on…. Bad shit comin my way…more sadness…more pain…I wusnt gonna gain my old friendships/relationships bak…..n I wus gonna lose more of tha ppl I love pretty soon…. Of course she gave me a bunch of other shit…n she wus able 2 tell me why I wus feeling all sad n shit..which wus  kinda creepy….. but yeah…it wus juss really confusing…. I guess wat u can say bout that is that I learned sumthn different bout myself…. I realized that tha reason ppl start a relationship/friendship with me…or tha reason y ppl start to like me n get to knw me…is cuz they find sumthn different in who I am….n lately…I started to change that…unconsciously. ….i wusn tbeing meyslef ne more….my whole attitude changed…but hwo can u expect me not to wen I hav ppl bakstabbin n walkin all over me….i open my heart up to ppl n all I get in return is a sak full of shit….. I get tha shit end of tha stik…im not expectin  nethn in return…..but Im not gonna sit here n be walkd on either….i let myself become vulnerable n now im jus lke WTF@!!! This shit aint me….like all good taurus’s….ima get on  n get over it….regardless of whtehr it means pretending to b fine…im not gonna sit here n complain…n honestly…im not an EXCUSE ORIENTED person…..im not gonna sit here n make excuses as 2 way sht is happening or why things aren’t goin tha way I want them to……BASICALLY…IT IS WAT IT IS….n im not gonna sit here n complain or make up reasons…if shit happens…it happens…n u gotta get on…..cuz cryin n getting into that kinda shit is juss gon make things 10 times worse…n I guess 4 a wile…I wus getting myself to that position…..but its pretty dam ridiculous….i nevre went off askn a friend 4 advice…I nevr wus tha one to feel sorry 4 shit or to giv a flyin fuk a bout love….. n now……..im getting to tha point….where I DON’T GIVA  RATS ASS ABOUT NONE OF THAT SHIT AGAIN!!……..l….     HE made me not wanna ever love again.     So now that skools started…its goin aiite….i aint doin much but fukin around wit nat n jessie….kikin at christas at 5 in tha morning…likin hersheys off of lilos boobs…lol shit lke that…havin fun….n that’s how ima keep it..   Ive learned that its better off wen u keep ur feelings 2 urself….n not let urself get carried away by all that “love” shit…..its better to not give ur heart away cuz all ppl r gonna do is tear it apart….shoot…now I remember y I used to play wit guys minds all tha time …… cuz It saved ME tha truble of getting hurt……n plus….i wudnt feel so bad 4 theyre asses  hahahahahah   Ok so now that all that has been said….im done wit this shiiitt…ima get on out of here n go eat me sum almond praline dreyers ice cream…..n watch tha notebook n cry myself 4 tha very last time 2 sleep!   Goooddd byyyeeee LJ until tha nxt 5 months wen sumthn useful happens!!! Hahaah  parties...or juss hangin out/........call me n ill be there,...yu all knw tha digits!!!!     good bye now “Wen one door of happiness closes…another one opens…but often we look so long at tha closed door…that we do not see tha one which has been opened 4 us.”     1 DiD!!| HoLlA aT yA gRl!!

welll......heres we go once more [17 Jul 2005|11:22pm] [ mood | ...EHH ] well this summer has definitley taken its road to hell journey... lets c..... i lost old firneds made new ones lost a boyfriend had my heartbroken......in every aspect yu can possibly think of i "changed" ....according to every1 else.... i think its more like growing.... im keeping myself busy to avoid having my mind think of other things that cause me to breakdown work....class at C.C......volunteering...helpin others.....thats wat im doin... i hate myspace.......it makes me cry guys...theyre still around....but they aint useful 4 a dam thing.... theyre jus good at 4 me to laugh rite in their face....reminds me y i used to play with guys minds.....then break their hearts....cuz theyre all a bunch of assholes...but im tha bigger n better bitch...lol then...lets c.... i miss people..... been hangin out wit tha old homiez.....makin new ones.....catchin up on old times.....reminiscin bouyt tha past....n lookin forward 2 an unexpected future... i miss having things tha way they were....NORMAL.... now ....its like evrythgns jus ablur to me...nuthns important..... except ....well......shiiit....nuthn really... so i finially figured y i loved tito so much....cuz he always finds a way 2 make me laugh n go bak to them chill ass times,...... thats y KIKIN IT AT TITOS IS THA BEST.... n um......yeah......thats bout it... i guess im done.....this is my update for......the next...iono 5 months..... if ne1 wants 2 kik it...talk...do sumthn...hit me up....ya'll know wusup... yu ALLLL got tha digits 2 my cellular device..... n if ur an ass n  u dont.,...hit up tha sn .....u shud knw wat that is 2!!! hahahaha i <3 tha following LILO>>>4 always understanding n reassuring me to b strong n helping me get thru lifes ups n downs...n 4 being my rock to lean bak on... CHRISTA....MY NYMPHO>>>4 always giving me tha dvice that i knw no1 will giv....n 4 doing stupid crtazy shit with me that  I KNOW ONLY YUUU wud do!!! lol "im shaking!!! im so nervous!!!.....i cant call bak!!" lol<<good times at tha park JESSIE.....MY GERBER BABY>>>4 making me see tha brighter things in life n giving a positive putlook to everythng....u giv me hope n without that hope n without yu...i hav no clue where id b.......n 4 makin me drive so dam early in tha mornin wile im nearly fallin asleep behind tha wheel! KERBEAR>>>4 being tha 1 person i can count on at 2....3......4.....lol even 5 in tha morning n crying with me till we got everythgn outta our system....lol.....u make me lagh n i love yu n miss yu lasty....but DEFINITLEY NOT LEAST..... NATALIE!!!!!!>>>>4 makin me crak tha hell up n makin me almost pee on my pants.....4 all our lunches n our "job" hunt....n ALL OUR DRAMA!!!!! hahahahaha so many goodtimes. my world is prefect with yu n ur crazy stories lol I LOVE YU ALL WITH EVERY SINGLE INCH OF MY HEART (shit 4 believing i actually hav a heart n knowing THAT I DO CARE ABOUT PEOPLE!!) n FUK ANY1 THAT THINKS CONTRARY TO THAT!   aiite then.... peace out fukers   3 DiD!!| HoLlA aT yA gRl!!

[17 Jun 2005|10:54pm] it seems like life seems to repeat its course on me....last yrs summer started off the same way this summer did....me crying...... i thought this summer mite turn out a lot better....fuk...its barley starting n im already bitching....w/e..... dont get me wrong.......i love my boyfriend n he makes evrythgn in this world perfect...... but wen im not with him....evrythng that suks in my life comes on top of me.... i have this weird feeling in me....i dont knw hwo to explain it......its jus weird.....i dont knw wat it is...i jus knw that it hurts.....it hurts my heart......its liek this small sense of lonliness......but within myself......i think i try so much to cover up how im feeling.....that i jus hurt myself more.....its cuz sumtimes its tha best thing to do....its better to jus pretend liek everythngs fine....today......i basicallly had tears waiting to fall from my eyes.....n i tried so hard to keep them in so that nobody wud see....n wen i finally cudnt hold it in nemroe....i started 2 cry......but of all tha ppl around me..... no1 seemed 2 care......n thats wat hurts...... knwing that u hav 2 get thru hard shyt on ur own. i guess things hurt moe becuz i think to myself....i do so much 4 othr ppl...n im thr 4 any1 wen they need me...n i giv so much of myself...(not expecting nethgn in return).....but wen it comes 2 me needing sum1..i hav no1 2 count on.... fuk......i guess its jus bout gettign thru it on ur own.....the harder the struggle to stronger yu become....fuk it.....im learning not to need shyt from ne1..naw actually lemme rephrase that.... cuz that i already knw.....but im learning not to need shyt form ne1 n not let it hurt.... yu knw tha weird thing is tht.....ppl dont expect a person to for once...wanna hav 2 jus break down n cry.....sumtimes thts alla  person needs......i dont need sum1 giving me a hwole lecture on advice.....sutimes yu jus want a person 2 b thr....n listen.....fuk...jsu being thr makes all tha difference.... so i knew being at home i wus gon b doin nuthgn but trying to avoid crying....so i ran to tha beach......stayed thr 4 bout an hr.....or 2...or 3..by myself....crying......thinking.....lookin at tha stars......hoping to get sum sort of an answer from god....anythng....soem kinda sign...as to why im feeling liek this....wtf i did....to end up here....wtf is gonna hppen with my lame ass life....shyt nethng.....n then a man came up nearby to where i wus sitting....n he sat down ....n started to play his saxophone,,,,,,,,,by surprise........i came to realize that he wus playin tha same song...my daddy used 2 play on his saxophone 2 me wen i wus little.....                      ....then i thought...mayb im not alone...mayb there is sum1 on my side... ive jus been ignoring it. final thought.....>>> wen 1 door of hapiness closes, another one opens. but often we look so long at tha closed door, that we do not see tha one which ahs been opened for us. 2 DiD!!| HoLlA aT yA gRl!!

[16 Apr 2005|10:35pm] 3 MoNthS WiT My bAby.........     :) HoLlA aT yA gRl!!

[03 Apr 2005|12:18am] 2nite.....was quite eventful.....me, tha cuzins, n sum homiez went cruiSIN arouNd  nearLy haLf of CaLi....we went cruisin w/ tha top down, music full blast...speedin on the freeways....n gettin piked up on by them pLayAs that were tryin to race us...hahaahahhaaha. then sum lezbian tried 2 pik up on me.....so i had to tell her i had another lezbian lover.... hahaahahah no more details....in conlcusion....2nite i had a fkn raDD ass hell time! last nite of course....wus much more unforgettable..... went to a party...wich suked....so we hit up jamba juice n ended up chillin at seal beach......n the nite........... WENT ON FROM THERE!!!!...... *<3<3<3* 5 DiD!!| HoLlA aT yA gRl!!

ANOTHA DAY.....ANOTHA DOLLA [28 Mar 2005|10:28pm] [ mood | HAAAAWWWWTTTT ] 2DAY I SENT THA DAY WITH MY BABY BOI...WELL SHIT....IVE ACTUALLY SPENT EVERYDAY 4 THA PAST 2 MONTHS WITH HIM....N THIS WAS THE 1ST WKND WE DIDNT SPEND 2GETEHR... :( HAHAHAHA YA I KNW....BUT EVERYMINUTE IM WITH HIM IS ALL WELL WORTH IT.   I LOVE MY BABY   YESTERDAY....WUS 10 YRS SINCE MY DADDY'S BEEN GONE (MY REAL DAD...4 THOSE WHO DONT KNW).....WE HAD A MASS 4 HIM WITH THA WHOLE FAMILY N FAMILY FRIENDS N WUT NOT....I DIDNT INVITE ANY OF MY FIRENDS CUZ WELL....SHYYT....THEYRE 2 DAM BUSY WITH THEIR OWN LIVES....BUT I REALLY NEEDED THEM THERE....OF COURSE THEY WUDNT REALIZE HOW IMPORTANT IT WUS TO ME CUZ THEYVE GOT THEIR OWN SHYT HAPPENIN...SO THEY WUDNT REALLY CARE....BUT I REALIZED THAT I DO MISS HIM....LIKE REALLY REALLY MISS HIM. THINGS WUD BE SO MUCH DIFFERENT IF HE WUS HERE RITE NOW...OMG IT WUD BE SUM CRAZY SHYT HAPPENEIN...ME ASKN HIM 4 EVERYTHNG THAT MY MOM DUSNT GIVE ME NOW LOL....YUP ID BE THA BIGGEST MOST SPOILED BRAT EBER...LOL BUT ITS ALL GOOD. EACH DAY I THINK OF HIM....N I RMEMERB THA TIMES WE SPENT TOGETEHR...N EVEN THO IT WUSNT MUCH IN MY LIFETIME....I STILL RMEMEBR IN DETAIL EVERY PLACE WE WENT...EVERY TIME HE TOOK ME TO DISNEYLAND..EVERYTIME HE TOOK ME 2 HIS WORK TO BRAGG ABOUT ME...EVERYMINUTE WE SPENT STILL REMAINS FRESH IN MY HEART. 10 YRS....DAM.....ITS BEEN A LONG ASS TIME BUT IT STILL SEEMS LKE JUS YESTERDAY MY MOM WUS TELLIN ME THAT HE HAD BEEN IN THAT ACCIDNET....TIME SURE DOES GO BY HELLA FAST....N IT MAKES ME REALIZE HOW MY LIFE IS CHANGING EVERYDAY MORE N MORE...N I AINT EVEN NOTICING IT....ITS TRIPPY. W/E I SHUDNT EVEN BE TYPING IN THIS SHYT...I JUS HOPE MY DADDY KNWS HOW MUCH I REALLY LOVE HIM....N HOW MUCH I MISS HIM N EVERYDAY I THINK OF HIM N NOT A DAY GOES BY THAT I DONT PRAY 2 GOD N WISH THAT HES IN A BETTER PLACE N WISH THAT HES OK.... 1 LUV BABY 2 DiD!!| HoLlA aT yA gRl!!

[27 Feb 2005|04:02pm] HMMMMM FRIDAY NITE WUS POWDER PUFF......... W/E WE LOST....I PLAYED.....I HAD FUN....BUT THE GOOD STUFF DIDNT START TILL FTER THE GAME.... MWUAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA I LOVE MY BABY BOI!!!   ENUF SAID   <3 MEEEEEEEEEE!!!!! HoLlA aT yA gRl!!

my body all over your body.......your body all over my body...... [19 Feb 2005|08:46pm] [ mood | god dam ]   Ok so im bored n I decided 2 update…….. well actually rite now I shud be washin clothes n doin sum otha shit around the hous….but im lazy n too dam tired 2 do nethng…lol……   But um ok lets c…..hows life evry1??? Hahahha  not that I care…..but um…..  ok so who the fuk still reads live journal….hahaha iono  n I don’t care…..i jus feel like typing….   k…..skool- skools gay n its irritating me n pissing me off…..but im doin alrite so I aint trippin   formal- formal wus….well…….quite an eventful nite……it wus the best nite so far…..  n it wus the best cuz I spent it with my baby……   then…….   Valentines day………me n my baby   Later that wk……. “its our anniversaryyyyyyyyy” ßtony tony tony hahaha gt’s gt’s   Lets c youth day wus  this past Thursday……w/e same shit as last yr…..me n Linda came bak 2 skool that evening n then we had to do the SHS initiation ceremony which wus a pointless waste of my time……once it wus over me n Linda had to go bak to Anaheim n meet up with the rest of he girls in the hotel….   Spent the nite….. fell asleep on the fone with craig...lol..n then Friday wus congress…..saw lotsa “familiar faces” n sum otha ppl along the way…… came bak that nite…   Today- went out with my boo….. got our pix from formal……..super sexy!!! N yeah spent the day wit him…   2moro I don’t feel lke doing shit…   don’t yu jus love the rain!!!!! Last nite wus freakin badass!!!!!   LINDA IS MY BEST FRIEND TILL THE DAY I DIE ALMA WILL ALWAYS BE MY BESTEST FRIEND & STEPH IS MY B-ATCH…..BEST FRIEND FOR LIZ-IFE     so get the fuk over it n quit bitchin bout me neglecting yo ass!!! Hahahahahah   ok naw fo reals tho……um…..i hav 2 balance out my time….n I gotta start being nice 2 people….   At the hotel…..i “hurt rosalies feelings” mwuahahahahahahahahahahahahah yes I am very mean…..lol…nuthn I can do about it…   N I luv mamma tibby!!! Shes my guardian angel…my hero…my idol….my inspiration.   Part of me wudnt be wat it is now if it wusnt 4 her love n guidance…..   Sound corny 2 yu? Yeah….oh well….2 dam bad….. lol powder puff this friday.......man i aint even gon say niuthn concerning that lol.....jus..wutever happens....HAPPENS.....lol     Ok im bored again….ima go now…… go call my boo       HoLlA aT yA gRl!!

OH SHIT [30 Jan 2005|11:55pm] YESTERDAY WAS THE MOST RANDOM SHIT EVR!!!!   SO I WENT OUT WITH STEPH  DURING THE DAY....PRETENDED TO BE HER GODMOTHER AT THAT CONFIRMAtion THIGN AT CYPRIAN....GOT A CALL FROM MY MOM TELLING ME TO GET MY ASS TO MONTERREY PARK CUZ MY GRANDMAS IN THE HOSPITAL AGAIN.......I COME BAK N GO TO STEPHS AROUND 7...OR 8....OR IONO........WE GET SUM CLOTHES......DRIVE DOWN THE 405 FREEWAY....GET A CALL FROM HER CUZIN.......N END UP IN SANDIEGO..............LMFAO....     MWUAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA   CAME HOME 2DAY AT LKE 5.....     DAM I LOVE STEPH!!.....GOOD MUTHAFUKING TIMES...... HoLlA aT yA gRl!!

livin la vida loca....moca....cocca...ahahahah [28 Jan 2005|10:06pm] [ mood | crazy ]   Well heLLLLLLLLoOoOooooOoO THERE!!!!!! Dam well its been a hella long time since I update….but wow…..erevy thing has beenn  going fabulous so far so I figured id update!!!   K well Washington n NY were soooo much fun!!!!!! Theres too much to talk bout but man oh man were we BAD!!!!! Hahahahahah….dam ·        First nite in hotel ·        Me christa steph n cynthia n ashlee…… ·        The FONE!!!!! ·        Sneaking in n out of ppls rooms ·        The GRUBBIN!!!! ·        The snowball fights ·        Stayin up all nite messin around ·        Christa takin a ashower wit cold water….in the morning….ahahah ·        The security guard telling us 2 shut up…… ·        All of us in 1 bed……n hiding from the old man…. ·        Sleeping in the museums….. ·        The hot security guards….THEY WERE ALL BLAK!! ·        Making fun of evry1 thaT FELL!!!! ·        The stupid dance!!!!! ·        White band called BOOTYLICIOUS…lmao wtf!!! ·        The MALL!!!!!! SHOPPING SPREE!!!! ·        The 4 marine guys….hahahahahhahaahah ·        The hotel adventure….with the guys…..ahahahahahahahahah ·        Me- “hi mr Thompson!”…. him-“ um the name is johnson”  LMFAO…. Gt’s ·        Sleeping in Claudia’s room…..with PINA N RUBO n natalie….lol these crazy kids ·        All the stupid shit christa wud say…..sleeping on the bus….. ·        The WALDOS!!! Dam faggots ·        MR. BOB!!!!!!!!   Too many good times…..   Then in NY…. ·        The joint rooms ·        Me, Cynthia, christa, steph, ashlee, ELF, hooters, Julie, Ronnie, rosenbloom, fuk iono who else but it wus a bunch off ppl all together…. ·        Waking up n getting ready in seriously…no joke…..2 minutes!!!! Lol ·        MORE SHOPPING!!!!!! ·        Blizzard!!!!!!! 2 fuking cold ·        All the know…..Cynthia dressed like a hooch…. ·        The SNOW!!!!   Ahhhhhhhhh so much more…..but dam…..it wus all fuking tite… The plane ride of course wus so much fun….i wus able 2 site with steph n ashlee n cynthia 2….hahahah  n the pretzels….oh man…w/e…..i had   such  a GREAT TIME!!!!! …..i started 2 miss home tho….i kinda missed….MY BED….my warm blankys n MY SHOWER!!!!…..i missed my LINDA…….life is not the same without her……n I missed MY BABY…….even tho we talked lke every nite 4 who knows how many hrs….but still….it wusnt the same….but neways…..so after a wk….we came home…Sunday nite….. Monday…DIDN’T GO TO SKOOL….slept all day…woke up at lke 5pm….the first thing I did wus take a nice warm shower….n had my aunty take me 2 jamba juice…. (MY JAMBA JUICE DIET HAS BEGUN)…. Came bak home…n slept again..   Tuesday…..pointless….mom made me go to skool…didn’t do bout shit!!! Hahaah BUT… <3>MY BOO<3> came 2 c me after skool…..so that made it all worth wile!!!   Wednesday….MY LAZY ASS DIDN’T GO TO SKOOL THE FIRST HALF OF THE DAY CUZ I STILL HAD TO PAK 4 KAIROS…..hahahahahaahahahah   So I woke up lk at 9……took a showr…had a good breakfast at home….unpkaed my suitcase from NY…threw everything on the floor n  threw sum more clothes in 4 the next 3 days…lol……got to skool rite b4 the buses took off  lol….   So kairos…. ·        I aint gon lie…….I WUS BORED…. ·        SCARY AS ALL FUKING HELL… ·        My cabin wus next to the “63” cabin….. ·        I wus freakin paranoid half the time ·        Ive never eaten so much….so dam fast…lol…..it wus cool tho…   So um now that we knw wat its like…..we get to all make it hopefully a greta kairos next yr for our girls…..   The last nite wus so much fun tho……n our leader wus JEY-REY!!!!….. shes the best ever….n I laughed so freakin much with “tab-dizzle” n “mar-dawg” (tabatha n marlena lol)  FUKING DYKES!!   N so yeah the last nite they all came n slept over in our room new all jsu slept on the floor n we pigged out n talked so much shit n wut not….it wus great…..n we all got so much closer 2 eachtoehr….we really “bonded” lol….lotsa ppl cried tho…..dam sissys…..w/e….thats jus me…lol… n so yeah that wus that….   Quite an experience….   B4 coming home….i stopped my stephs hous…..cuz I missed my lover so much I had 2 c her…..but I cant wait till I c linda…n I cant wiat 2 c my babe..n I cant wait 4 tomoro….cuz we GoNnA PaRtTaAaYY LikE No OtHa!!!!!   K every1!!!!! Thats all 4 me…..im out….. n if yu ahvent talked 2 me ina wile….hit me up….yu knw the #…….n quit complaining bout me not calling ur asses….jus shut up…pik up the fone…n call me…k!!! hahahaha   <3> leslie       1 DiD!!| HoLlA aT yA gRl!!

[17 Jan 2005|11:34pm] FiRST OFF.....yesterday wus disneyland....AGAIN......n it wus GREAT........AN EVENTFUL EXPERIENCE....i mite add......         TOMORO WERE OFF TO WASHINGTON!!!!!!!!!!!!!     ITS GONNA BE FUKING TITE!!!!!!   LAX--> TERMINAL 3-->8:30 WE LEAV AT LKE 12.....   BE THERE N SAY BYE TO US BITCHES CUZ UR ALL GOING TO MISS US!!!! HAHAHAAH IM GOING 2 MISS MY L-TWEEZY SO MUCH....IVE NEVR BEEN WITHOUT HER 4 MORE THAN A  DAY....1 WK IS LKE....4VER N A DAY... :( SO EVERY1 BE NICE 2 HER .....OR ELSE......HAHAHAH     K BYE EVERY1....WUSH US LUK.....(dont knw y i jus said that lol)..........BUT YES.....!!! BYE BYE!!!!!!   NY....HERE WE COME!!!!!   2 DiD!!| HoLlA aT yA gRl!!

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